Directions in Life...

How could you have done that to me?

I thought I know you

but now all seems lost.

I don't know what to do,

what to believe.

It breaks my heart

but I have to do what's best for me.

Will I be ok?

It feels like I don't belong here...

anymore.

I need some changes

but I don't know how.

Trying to explain everything

doesn't make it easier.

And a scar doesn't heal over night,

it needs time.

But time is rare.

I can't just walk away,

did that too many times before

and have regretted it.

How can I know it will not happen again?

I can't handle another heart attack!

Normaly I am so strong
How do I move on
from here?
Knowing that it will never be the same again.

looking back into 2010...

I thought I will sum' my year...all of the wonderful moments I had and the things I have to change!

The most surprising thing that happened in 2010 was a language course, which made so much fun and brought me so many new and good friends (when totaly not expected). (Also the best that happened to me this year)

This didn't had to happen in 2010: burning down my kitchen, stress during exam week, many visits at the doctors, many repairs on my car and the demolition of a landmark in Gera(my hometown)!

This I have learned in 2010 that life is short and time is rare and that you shouldn't always take care of others but of yourself!

My movie of the year 2010 was Inception!

My book of the year 2010 was 'The Carrie Bradshaw Diaries' (very entertaining), 'The Girft' (really opened my eyes again).

My song of the year 2010 was Cee-Lo Green 'Fuck You'.

I've been there the first time in 2010 in Cologne.

I didn't get to do this in 2010: travel and visiting old friends.

In 2010 I trevelled to: Amsterdam, Cologne, Berlin and Heidelberg.

Things that annoyed me by the press in 2010 that nothing happened to solve the question of fault for the incident at the Love Parade!

Things that I have been touched me by the press in 2010 the rescue of the Chilean minors!

I am proud of myself for doing this in 2010: speaking out my feelings, starting a new language from sratch and reading so much besides Uni stress!

In 2010 I should have done more for Uni, with my family and travelling.

In 2010 I should have done less distracting things.

In 2010 the sadest thing was that some friends were out of sight.

In 2010 I spend most of my time with studying for Uni (but not enough).

Five words that describe 2010 for me exciting, adventures, friendships, Waesserchen and

I am excited about 2011 because I hopefully get to travel and will start a jop.

Things I need to do more in 2011: concentrate on the really important stuff (e.g at Uni) and travel more!

Things I need to do less in 2011: be persuaded by others, don't fight with others too much and spending less money for unimportant suff!

The craziest thing I did in 2010 was that I prepared shortly after christmas the christmas cards for next year!

Have a good start into the new year!

Gera covered in snow

My hometown is covered in snow. I don't know when I last saw so much snow on christmas day here! I guess it was when I was little and enjoying to go by sleigh!;) It is great though. At least as long as you don't have to leave the house. With all the snow my city is a little overwhelmed and unable to clear all that snow away and so it's kind of annoying to rely on public transportation or on snow-clearer. But, soon it will be over again...

I just hope it's not going to start snowing again...

Wichteln

Today was my first Wichtel-evening! It was a great evening, with singing, chatting, eating and fairytales!
I got a little surprise for each of the girls! And I really thing they liked it!
My present was a DVD and I am very happy with it! I love that movie!
So, when we had almost nothing else to talk about we looked into my bookshelf and found a very nice book. It's calles Grimms Maerchen and of course I had to read the story about the Bratwuerstchen, dem Voegelchen and the Maus!This story ALWAYS makes everybody laugh!

Christmas in Germersche

hey!

I finally got my chrisstmas decoration up and I really like it!;)

See for yourself...